x_cordial

Movie

2008-06-04T10:00:51Z

Sex in the City the movie really opened my eyes as to what could happen. I guess i just wanna say I'm pretty happy right now although things aren't as great as it should be. It could be better but like i use to say live life to its fullest. Have no regrets, go after what you want, take a chance and never stop giving up.

x_cordial @ 2008-05-28T00:59:00

2008-05-28T08:08:07Z

why is it like this just so complicated. It is just so hard.
why should i be jealous when i'm not.
why do people think i am when i'm not.
stop assuming...

Since January

2008-03-19T04:53:32Z

So January First off Happy late Birthday! To the January Babies... So yea I crossed in Jan on the 18th =D yay! Then I debate weather i should join Lambda Phi Epsilon or Pi Alpha Phi lil sis. It was such a hard decision. =( I decided to PAPhi in the end. Sorry if anyone is mad at me or something... , but yea.

February...
Since now I am apart of Alpha Kappa Delta Phi i decided to run for positions. I am Co-Publicity and Dance coordinator! Yay! but anyways Happy Late B-day to the Feb babies! =D whoop whoop! We had our Club event at Whisper Lounge it was a blast haha the first time ever I was so excited for a Club again lol. But yea the weekend of the 15th to the 17th had a trip down to SLO- Cal Poly for CCC (Central Cost Conference) That was a blast thanks to All my Pledge Sisters from everywhere! Woop woop! and the Lovely Ladies of aKDPhi.... also Pledge bros and Lambda's. The 21st was BIG BRO revealing! yay! <33 you My Big Bro Andy Lai ( and thank you for everything) The 23 was my formals/ installs! wow! That night was crazy! haha but yea if you were there you should know lol. So i ended February with a blast by going on the lil sis ski trip. The first time i went snowboarding ever! but it was fun then i got sore for almost a week. NAW less then that but yea XP

March....
So Happy BIRTHDAY! to the babies of MARCH!!!! =D
2nd was estrogen day went to Berkeley to kick it and have some fun! ... Also get or well almost get tricked haha but any who...Hung out with my Pledge sisters that was fun! <33 Rush week started on the 4th and it was quite a success i might say. Good Job to rush Chairs LILY L and SUZIE S. =D Then on the 12th we held a "Night of Laughter" that was a success also and it was hella funny! *Left tity Right titty Pow* oh joy haha. the 15 went to Berkeley again for a Pledge sister/bro b-day that was quite awesome met my PAPhi Pledge bros from San Jose yee yee represent! It was nice meeting you Chris, Ryan, and Andrew I meet you like a million times lol glad you memeber me after that.

Now... Currently March still
Finals week is finally here and so I'm studying my butt off! haha but yea The quarter is almost ending and so i'm enjoying it until spring break then things will get cracking you know, but that is all

My other part of my life is being so complicated but yea i have no clue what to do but just leave it alone.

Okay well that is all the up dates. ummm i'ma post more day to day

*Thank you to those to read it and care*

So late haha

2008-02-27T13:43:13Z

So anyways it like 5:30 in the morning and yea I'm still awake haha but anyways.

Thank you mommy for everything I know you care and I'm sorry for yelling and stuff.

Blurbs...

PMOM! Thank You for everything! And always being there and I hope that we've made you proud. =D Love you lots! <33 you’re the best. For supporting us with everything we had to do. You were my inspiration my role model. =D

Dear my lovely Pledge sisters, I’m glad we had all that time to get to know each other and be together it gave us that bond that is sick haha you know it! But yea anyways I’ve learned so much since day one I met you girls and I hope that our bond will always be strong. I just want to say how glad I am that we stuck through this together and I'm happy that we are pledge sisters =D yay! AL! Just know that I will always be here for you girls just give me a call or something. =D

Michelle (shelly) haha I remember that one time we meet haha random much but it’s all good. At times we are so retarded but you know it was all because we were delusional, but anyways much fun small things, Xp. Itty bity one haha

Tiffany! (nibbles) I’m happy that you are here you classy little girl. Haha <33 man member all those times lol man good times and inside jokes lol. But I’m so proud of you! =D I just wanted you to know that and tonight we are going to have fun!

Jenn (uni-brow) haha we meet oh so randomly lol it was funny that ride we needed from people, good stuff, you are a strong girl and so retarded squirrel chaser! LMAO but anyways glad you’re my psis some entertainment in my life haha. XP

Sandreezy you tall as girl haha but anyways I’m glad you stuck it through. It was fun lol and all those girl talks that we have. Sometimes those ditzy moments. Those long car ride haha thanks. Anyways we gonna party it down tonight haha =D

Biggie! Thank You biggie for always being there for me in the time of need. <33 For the support and coming out a lot. I really appreciate it so much. =D I’m so happy that you are my biggie since day one. Not so big biggie tehehe =D we should have family dinner one day with as many people as we can I hope lol with our busy schedule it’s so hard to but were going to try. There is so much more then I can express how much I want to thank you for.

Big Big haha you are such a weirdo sometimes haha but its all good. We from the same area haha so you know! Oh yea we have to kick it too and chill together. Thank you for coming out as much as you can, to support me. =D I’m glad you are my big big.

Triple! Hahah I’m glad I got to meet you early on haha its all good =D we never had that family dinner, in which one day we will and soon too, but thank you for trying to come out.

Wellis hey boy hey! haha thank you for coming out and being my date for formals i appreciate it so much! Hope you have just as much fun as i do. =D member that one time we had to house you guys lol nice right stuck in that little room of so many people, but it’s okay it was a bonding moment. Hey check it out we get to finally kick it haha right? Or am I right? LMAO I’m glad you came out thank you so much! =D

MY LOVELY BOMB BETAS thank you for coming out, and taking us into the house. It was such a great experience I must say. Tonight we are going to have fun! Haha for sure you know it. It has been awesome and I hope that the future experience well get better as we progress more as the new members in the house. I assure you that I will try my very best to help out and do everything in my power to make you ladies proud. I thank you for supporting us and coming out to everything and being actives. You ladies are the coolest bunch I’ve ever met =D like seriously <333 mucho!

To my Big bro thank you for everything I know I’m writing this nothing know who you might be but =D I know you’ve done a lot for me and thank you ! =D

Hevesy haha you are the nicest person I’ve met. Thank you for accompanying one of my pledge sisters to formals. Man lol all those inside jokes sometimes I’m happy that I have class with you its so freaking funny! LMAO.

Thank you to everyone! =D Psis and Pbros lots of love!

After Blurbs...

Pmom you crazy girl! haha <33 you are too cute lol.

My Psis hearts haha hope you girls had a fun night good game haha.

BombBetas! hope you all had fun! haha looks like you did.

FAMILY! thank you for you know whats haha XP

Biggie Bro haha thank you so much for carrying stuff sorry for the trouble lol. =D hope you had fun! haha

My Date Wellis! hey boy hey haha thank you so much for coming out. I hope you had a good time. =D Sorry you had to carry so much shit and take care of me. >.< but thank you so much! i can't say that enough. I'm glad we talked.

To all the other orgs thank you so much for coming to present =D <33 hope you all had fun at the after party. i really appreciate it!

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anyways going back to doing my essay haha =(

WTF

2008-02-10T23:02:19Z

So a lot of people know me to be a nice person. I don't ask for much just that you respect me and I will respect you back. Even if you don't respect me I will respect you and hope that you will change and respect me too. I don't get mad or irritated easily, I don't like to use the word hate. If you know me I have a really high tolerance for people and it takes a lot to get me pissed off . When I am pissed not many have seen, but its pretty bad. Only a couple of my close friends from home in San Jose have seen this side of me. Yes I know i may be a quiet person but that doesn't mean what i say shouldn't be heard. Even if i am a younger then a lot of people.

Out of all people you should understand me and my situation a lot, but really omg honestly i've never been so fucking pissed off at someone who doesn't understand one lil simple concept. Is it that fucking hard to understand? i don't cuss normally but at this point i'm boiling, and i rarely hit that point even Jackie knows. i mean come one i'm trying to drill it into your head for goodness sake. shit! That a hint will you and don't act like what i say is invisible. we are all in the same fucking situation so maybe you'd like to reconsider your attitude and when your talking about it. I see a pattern in you when you want something that involves you, your hella on top of that shit but when it doesn't you don't seem to give a fuck! I mean come on! shit i have so much to say but apparently you will never realize it your self so why should i keep going... and p.s. think before you say something.

Great same day update....
my mom is complaining that she can't do her homework and it is all my fault. How is it my fault all you have to do is follow the directions and i told you step by step before so yea and you wrote it down. its not my responsibility to do your homework for you. now she is like if you want to go out when you come home don't come home. well i won't be back for the next three to four weeks anyways happy! shit. Homework you should know how to do its not m responsibility. see how i feel now and applying for college with out your help was hard you know what its life. arrrrggggg.... why does she have to make things so complicated. now i have to find a job to pay for apartment and all that other stuff and pay people back... life sucks....
she totally tried to give me a guilt trip and say she is not doing homework anymore cause i couldn't fix the internet over the phone... WTH!

blah....

2008-01-30T09:55:49Z

once upon a time long time ago... trust fall my friend dropped me right so since then I been scared but just couple weeks ago i got over my fears... but right now my heart is hella pumping and yea so quick so quick... anyways so lazy i'll up date more later...

NEW years ... (venting)

2008-01-01T22:23:02Z

Well new years turned out to be lonely, sad, and just plain depressing...

I got yelled at by my mom at 1 am for doing nothing... then my dad lectured me for being slow. Honestly do they have nothing better to do than yelling at me? My mom keeps saying I am a disgrace and shit and I'm like what the heck! are you kidding me. I've been working so hard in school and stuff just so you can be proud but i guess you don't see it what so ever and don't appreciate it from me. You keep telling me my attitude is like dad but you are wrong, can't you stop comparing me to people not everyone is the same you know. We all grew up in different environments we come out different. Every child thinks about there parents there is no one child out there that doesn't appreciate what there parent has done. she doesn't even know how much i give up just to make her proud. It's the beginning of the new year so I don't want to talk back anymore, but sometimes she just needs to understand and listen to me, but she doesn't. This is why I'm letting it all out here. OMG and she comes up with conclusions and when i try to explain she shhh's me. WTHeck. She is so freaking ridiculous sometimes its just so frustrating. This all just happened today too. XP Great NEw YEars right? no.

On top of all that I am sick with cough and cold. >.<Life just isn't so dandy.

My so called guy best friend can't even respond to my text but also text back... "Stop txting me i gotta do something" okay...? why are you so secretive now. Trying to hide something? Plus why did you ignore me the whole time during secret Santa dinner until the end? I'm just wondering, but what ever.

New years eve i just stayed home and did nothing. My dad went out and my mom was sleeping. Once new years came my mom was like come to sleep right now blah blah blah...! this year is so ehhh.... I have a feeling this year is some what luck but not so luck.

Right now my mom is still complaining about me. arrgggg.. when is it going to end. Stop complaining about me. Why do you pick out all the flaws yea you think its for the best but from my mom to me it hurts my damn feeling! I feel so frustrated right now, and stop shhh'ing me! geeezzz. Do i tell her to yell at me and talk about me? no i don't she just does it and then complains about why she has to yell at me all the time. I'm like WTF? no one tells her to do it she just does.

Heading back to Davis soon I'm going to miss everyone! Gonna Be happy to get away from home though.

This is My New Years for you.

-Shay

bleh...

2007-09-20T03:48:57Z

It seems as though things you get your self into I'm in as well. but why? but anyways

i feel like I'm getting so distant with some friends i don't want to lose touch with. As you girls get closer I'm drifting away with some of you, and to make things worst I'm moving away which means further distant and also literally. Why does this happen with all the girls. When drama come people get closer and people drift away. Even if we don't hang out but still talk some of us are still close together, but others its just not close anymore. Once were close but not the distance is big.

I'm just confusing myself now worrying about all of this. I don't to lose any of you guys. We've been through thick and thin and i don't want that friendship to be over.

just ramdomness

2007-09-20T03:03:34Z

Well leaving in 2 days .... oh poo.... gonna miss SJ and everyone that is here. <3